The acceptance of Christ brought immediate changes in my attitude toward life. I began to act differently. I was more forgiving and less judgmental. I felt like I was let in on a secret and I wanted to share it with the world! I was euphoric, and it was all because I accepted Christ.

The Bible was my book to read concerning directions for my life — for words of encouragement, empowerment, and for healing in my mind and body. I slept with it and awoke with it. As I read of the sacrifices that believers had to undergo in the Bible, I sensed somehow I was chosen to live an example life for the Lord. I knew that the Lord loved me and that He takes care of those He loves. I was a kept woman.

There was a certain man of Ramathaim-Zophim, from Mount Ephraim, and his name was Elkanah, the son of Jeroham, the son of Elihu, the son of Tohu, the son of Zuph, an Ephrathite. “And he had two wives; the name of the one was Hannah and the name of the other Peninnah: and Peninnah had children, but Hannah had no children (1 Samuel 1-2).” The Bible introduces us to these two women as the woman who bore children (Peninnah) and the barren woman (The Beloved Hannah). Each served their purpose. I want to discuss on ‘the had’ and ‘had not’ of the situation. I immediately felt the anguish of Hannah’s situation. I continued to read Hannah’s story. Taking into account, how Hannah’s “had not” was transitioned to, if it “had not been for the Lord” report. Her “had not” provoked her to do something that she would normally not do.

I believe that Hannah would not have prayed in the manner she prayed. The way she did was unheard of! Her need for inner standing was so vast that it could not be voiced aloud. Heaviness of the heart can do that to a person. Perhaps, Hannah never would have risen early without an escort, to go pray alone. There are some things you have to do alone. Hannah’s need went beyond the capacity of her husband’s aid. Elkanah did what he could. He said comforting words to her. He demonstrated his love by showering her with gifts. Moreover, she had to step out on faith in her quiet moments. It is your journey alone to take.

God teaches us wisdom in our storms of life. When the storms are over and the quietness settles over us. Do remember what He has done for you? Never give up.

(Editor’s note: Vanessa Richardson can be reached at VanessaJackso90@hotmail.com.)